Another Day

February 23, 2010

So many times we take for granted the things people do for us. I am so grateful to have people who care about my well being. I love my life, family, friends, and most importantly GOD! He gives us an opportunity everyday that we wake up to do something to better our lives! I am thanking Him for all he has done for me and for what he has done in others lives around me! Thanks!!

LJT

Rekindle….

February 18, 2010

Well recently I just cleared up somethings with an old friend. We had soo much drama in the past that has caused us to be friends off and on. I really missed the days we would hang out and watch a good movie and just be ourselves. I am truly sorry for all of the things that I did the cause our friendship not to work. I was kind of scared of what people were thinking about me since I was friends with them. But then I realized that I was friends with them because I wanted to and that I saw something in them that was the basis of our friendship. They would tell me about myself anytime I was making a bad decisions or just being me. They also give great advice. I am learning daily to open up and be at true friend.. that was something that I lacked in the past! I want to make this friendship be as strong as it can possibly be.  So now its time to start fresh or rekindle what has been here the whole time… I love you…

Ugh.. Here we go Again

February 18, 2010

So i just came from Bridgestreet… And it was my bestie and that certain individual… We ate and then we left… She told me she felt like I did want her around… If I honestly felt that way I WOULDNT have drove 15min to come get you after you got out of class!!!! So I got real emotional I was crying and I didnt let her see that I was… I just feel like I do SOOOOO much stuff for you and you go and say something like that… I have been holding in all these emotions because I care about how you feel and what is going on with you… But apparently im the one who always has the problem!! Which i dont feel is me at all… But then we get back to my place and you say “Can you take me back to my room?” Im like no problem and she says see thats what im talking about…. Im like what??? She said I act ugh… She is the one who acts like she doesnt want to be around but then you call or text me saying I miss you come and get me… I can 0nly take soo much….

This One Individual

February 17, 2010

Okay… Where do i start?? I’m going to try to keep it short and to the point… Before I start I would like to announce *Testing is this thing on??* I’m a lesbian and I LOVE GIRLS!! Lol…. But anyway I will begin… This girl I am currently giving my time to is straight!! I have known her for about 2yrs… And last year I came out and told her that i liked her. And was trying to figure out how… I just simply told her…“I love your personality, your cute, low-key, drama-free, and I wanna get to know you!” She was reluctant at all. We started hanging out and kicking it on a regular basis… Then i found out she hand some unclaimed baggage at home… meaning a ex or whatever you want to call him. She told me that they were not together.. Okay i believed that. But when you went home for break he was calling and texting my phone from yours because you were asleep at his house. Wow.. that made me soo mad.. but you called and apologized. Im like okay… But i could sense that she still had feelings for him but wouldn’t admit it to me. But all this past and you told me that you were falling in love with me and didnt know why. The feelings are mutual. Okay up to this point… She wants to take things slow but doesnt want to be in a relationship.. Confusing… We do things all the time as if we are in a relationship. She wants soo much from me and I feel like i get nothing in return because your afraid of how people will look at you!  She says she wants to be with me… but i feel like im wasting my time… dont get me wrong i will do anything for her because we have a lasting friendship. Yes i can say that I’m in love but I don’t want to get hurt… Nor does she… But I need some advice on how to deal with this..

Should we just be friends? Should I not spend as much time with her as I do? Ugh… idk… there is soo many things to take into consideration… to be continued…

LJT

Where I’m At…

February 17, 2010

Well as of now I honestly don’t know… I know what I want to do with my life but when it comes to being in a relationship I havent found the right one. I am currently “talking” to one individual…. I don’t even know if  i will consider it talking to because she is soo confused.. But i will let that subject have a blog of its own. And I also have someone I go kick it with when she wants some or vice versa…lol. I really don’t know if that’s a good idea.  I can truly say that i want to be in a committed relationship with someone who knows what they want in life and doesn’t worry about what people may say or think if they see us out together. Someone who is confident with themselves! It’s so hard trying to find someone like that because everyone is always trying to hide something. I don’t know why I just wish people would be real… it’s not that hard… Just don’t lie…. simple!

LJT

Hello world!

February 17, 2010

Hello… ugh… Im new to this so bare with me…  I will begin blogging momentarily…..